Spent three days in the hospital because of Lamont's "chest pain" to stay out of the cold. I sort of like our cozy little tent, even if the wind did blow it over yesterday and he had to weight it down with logs and bags. :) but tonight it should be cold as hell and i am sure the cold shelter will not be open so we will be freezing our asses off out there, plus its just so far up route one, its so inconvenient to get back and forth in fredericksburg....oh well.
things between us are...well, as well as can be expected....oops, more next week?...
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Friday, February 6, 2009
Time, and then.
Once again, am I forced to wonder how bad this can get?
Homeless again, not even a car to go to. :)
but not too bad yet, because still there is my baby, Lamont.
It all scares the shit out of me, though. I am so afraid any day now he is going to leave. I mean, he does need to work. and so do I, but if he has to travel, I truly have NO WHERE to go, I mean when the cold shelter isn't open at night.
Not sure if the tent is still up at our spot.
I did talk to Twan yesterday for about 7 minutes. He's okay. Still probably lying. asked me all of this extra stuff, do i miss him, do i think about making love to him, blah blah...he could have found me a place to stay and all that mess, but do I really believe that?
And then yesterday we saw darrell who invited us over to drink a blasted beer with him, and tried to grab my ass on the way out the door!
And maryann freaked out on us for no reason for the last time last night.
So goodbye, baby zowie. It sucks, and i will miss her like crazy, but we simply can't take it anymore, it's no freaking fair. And then like, people took shit from Lamont's car, so our shit is all spread out because they don't want us to keep stuff in his car while he is waiting for his license plates, but like, we don't have anywhere else to put it all, you know? it sucks.
But i am alive, and amazingly, in major love.
and i need to be fucked badly.
however, i am digging the no more gratuitous sex.
i like this new lovely love. at least for now.
and i am just praying for some miracle, or at least some under the table, legal fast money, you know?
i even thought about trying to sell my fucking plasma! :)
but there are no centers for it around here.
this morning we took a walk along the canal road under some bridges into downtown. We sat on a pier for a little bit and listened to the birds and tried to crack the ice with an empty green glass bottle but the water was frozen solid. it was a beautiful walk to the library. the cold had hardened the ground but the air was clean and hard.
oh for just a beatiful moment at least once a day?
melissa
Homeless again, not even a car to go to. :)
but not too bad yet, because still there is my baby, Lamont.
It all scares the shit out of me, though. I am so afraid any day now he is going to leave. I mean, he does need to work. and so do I, but if he has to travel, I truly have NO WHERE to go, I mean when the cold shelter isn't open at night.
Not sure if the tent is still up at our spot.
I did talk to Twan yesterday for about 7 minutes. He's okay. Still probably lying. asked me all of this extra stuff, do i miss him, do i think about making love to him, blah blah...he could have found me a place to stay and all that mess, but do I really believe that?
And then yesterday we saw darrell who invited us over to drink a blasted beer with him, and tried to grab my ass on the way out the door!
And maryann freaked out on us for no reason for the last time last night.
So goodbye, baby zowie. It sucks, and i will miss her like crazy, but we simply can't take it anymore, it's no freaking fair. And then like, people took shit from Lamont's car, so our shit is all spread out because they don't want us to keep stuff in his car while he is waiting for his license plates, but like, we don't have anywhere else to put it all, you know? it sucks.
But i am alive, and amazingly, in major love.
and i need to be fucked badly.
however, i am digging the no more gratuitous sex.
i like this new lovely love. at least for now.
and i am just praying for some miracle, or at least some under the table, legal fast money, you know?
i even thought about trying to sell my fucking plasma! :)
but there are no centers for it around here.
this morning we took a walk along the canal road under some bridges into downtown. We sat on a pier for a little bit and listened to the birds and tried to crack the ice with an empty green glass bottle but the water was frozen solid. it was a beautiful walk to the library. the cold had hardened the ground but the air was clean and hard.
oh for just a beatiful moment at least once a day?
melissa
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