Evolution?

Things are so different than they used to be. I keep trying to remember how much I hate change, and yet it seems lately that is my one constant thing in life: change...well, that, and Lamont. :) He is my dream. We moved haphazardly to Richmond and went from having nothing and making nothing to him having to come up with 900$ for rent and utilities and such, and of course my fat ass ain't doing a damn thing to help.

We live in a nice house, nice as in two stories, spacious kitchen and living room, our own room and a balconey and three porches. But it's totally unfinished, and not only is lamont paying all this money for a place that really isn't even worth it, he is expected to renovate the whole place for free!

As for me. Life is sweet. Too sweet. I see colors brighter and the hear things like noise-music in every echo. I went home. I saw my family, WITHout Lamont. And I made it without him. :) I caught up with Robyn and Alethea who has an amazing baby.....
I am afraid to feel so happy when my whole life is always on the fringe of things. Do I live life on the fringe of things? I wonder. There is the whole entrappment. Yes, I adore being able to read all the books I want, still not a lot of writing yet. Not a computer to do it but yes mostly excuses. I think this might be able to work out though. L and I, he and his video games, me and books, beer, some mojo (not mine), hard work, that's where I come in. Mom and Daddy FINALLY sent away for my birth certificate, and then I have to once and for all for real get a fucking job. If we end up having to leave Robin's house, it'll suck, cuz we have the truck too, but I have already been looking at rooms we could rent for a lot cheaper than we are paying now.