I didn't know it would be this long before I even wrote on here again. Still homeless, only moreso now. Twan got locked up the day before yesterday! i am utterly alone. have been staying with a girl maryanne and her baby, but boy does she have some issues. i babysit for her all the time free. she has had a long string of boyfriends. this latest one is 51 with no teeth who gets drunk every night. but at least he is good with her baby. she is just really exhausting. i wasn't planning on staying with her so long but twan and i were both staying with her. then when he got locked up, i went to the homeless community center here, yesterday, and who else but D shows up, PROMISING me that TODAY he would show up with a truck so that i could go meet the old white guy who needs someone to live with him and take care of him, and i was like okay baby i really need this now, i am definitely by myself, right? WRONG i waited for him all morning and he never showed up! i took the baby with me to the center this morning until mike and maryanne showed up later.

in other events, the slut took on another lover last night. :) well actually, i had sex with D in the tent early yesterday after promises that he would come get me today, right? well this is a guy lamont, who is also a friend of mike that has been staying with maryanne. i have seen him around at the homeless center but never really thought twice about him. when i was staying with maryanne twan was always with me...until last night. i joked around about needing mercy sex and he yelled from the kitchen just let me know when you need it (he is a really good cook, by the way). so anyway we get a little flirty and pretty much decide we are gonna have fun once everyone is asleep. the baby was on the couch and the other two were upstairs, we had a case of beer to drink. :) anyway, let me just say WOW! now already before he had said, okay im not going to lie, i want some, but its not like love or anything. just physical, and i said yeah most women have a hard time differentiating that, don't they? and he said, and you don't? and i said, no, not really? and he said, but what if its really good? and i laughed and said, oh yeah? what if I'M really good, shouldn't you worry about that? and he laughed.
My god he was incredible. (let me just say now that again, this is why i love this anonymous blog so much, i could never write like this anywhere else and feel safe. i never write about sex, for a reason.) our tongues and hands and lips were all over the place. he ate me out better, i think than i have ever been eaten out (sorry T) TWO TIMES! like he couldn't get enough of my pussy!! and then when he finally came in the middle of the night (he couldn't come at first because of all the beer) he was incredible, the way he sounded. he loved touching and rubbing all over me all night long...once he feel asleep with his hand in my pussy, for real! once he fell asleep just rubbing down the crack of my ass, and cupping the cheek....it was wow. i know he thought it was going to be awkward between us this morning, but it wasn't. in fact knowing me i think i ignored him a little more than i should. but he has his own life, and from what i understand, plenty of his own women to deal with.
but man...what a nice surprise, and i lovely way to spend the night! i can't help but hope we might have that opportunity again one day? but then again, that would already take some of the magic out of it, wouldn't it? plus maryanne, who i secretly think is a little jealous, was already making comments about how he is playing with my heart this morning and i was like, what are you talking about? he is doing no such thing? we're fine! and i will deny i slept with him until the cows come home...not like its her business anyway!!
so i guess i will get a few books here, head back over to maryanne's until that dinner tonight at 5, then back here at the library until the cold shelter opens tonight. REAL homelessness, here i am! pleased to meet you. :) i don't even have a stamp to mail my baby a letter.
by the way i know i haven't talked a lot about twan being gone yet...actually it is slowly gutting me into a million trillion pieces, but i am not sure what to do about it yet, especially since the only news i get from him is through his fucking "ex"girlfriend who has to comment all the time about all the things he says about still being in love with her.
whatever. if she only knew.
but obviously i am afraid to let my own pussy get cold!
oh slut that i am.....